I changed my editorial calendar to do a quick series on creativity. In my last post, I suggested 15 minutes a day to exercise your creative muscles. In this post, I’m going to share the way anger can fuel your creativity.
It’s a Full Moon, right?
Last Thursday, I hit my breaking point. Nothing seemed to go right. I wasn’t making progress on projects. I felt blah and directionless. I received four personal phone calls from people who talked at me, not to me, without taking a breath.
I went to bed annoyed and woke up completely ticked off on Friday. I decided to give in and allow myself to be mad for the entire weekend.
I turned off my phone. I cranked up the classical music. I went to the quiet protection of an art gallery. I also allowed myself to eat as much candy and drink as much wine as I wanted.
I’m re-working my way through Walking in This World, The Practical Art of Creativity by Julia Cameron. When I sat down to read on Friday, I did an exercise aptly named “Use Anger as Fuel.” I wrote down 50 things I was angry about. If the page were longer, I’m sure I could’ve kept going and hit 100 easily. I was really P.O.’d!
The Calm After the Storm
Saturday, I created a space near a window so I can sketch at a small writing desk. I started cleaning my studio (a.k.a. junk room), got paperwork in order while watching a movie, and reorganized my office to encourage more creativity. I even had an “aha” moment and made a much-needed decision on my business that will, long-term, allow my creativity to flourish.
All that to say: Once I let go and surrendered to the anger, everything fell into place. After I was done being mad, I moved forward creatively without resistance. It was easy.
I don’t get really angry too often, but apparently I needed this little temper tantrum. It felt so good to be naughty.
In the midst of being an angry, petulant child, I rediscovered my creativity.
What about you? Have you ever had an experience like that? How did you feel afterward?
If you feel creatively stifled, maybe you should set aside a couple of hours alone to get completely P.O.’d and make your list of 50 things you’re angry about. The release is delicious.